I know for some this is probably the worst day of the year now to live through. It's a day I know I will never forget. I'm Canadian, and what I witnessed on CNN that morning 4 years ago is very much forever embedded in my mind. Never before in my life time can I recall such a horrific Man-made act of violence on innocent people outside of war itself. I have lived through 40 'Rememberance Days' up here in Canada but never really having any concept of what WWI and WWII's inpact had on us as a country. I wasn't around to experience that or to feel any of the effects it had on our society or family members.

09/11 however will be my 'Rememberance Day' because I saw it LIVE in a state of unbelief yet I could never really imagine what those people and their families really felt that day.

I want to say to all who have suffered great loss due to this Godless act of violence that I was not there in person that day but I know that if I were there and amongst you that my tears would not go unnoticed.

My Blessings to ALL affected

Dear Dad,

I miss you. It's been 7 years and almost 4 months since I witnessed your last breath of air in this world. I feel your presence around me so often and your image remains strong within my mind. My love for you has never changed. You raised me well I believe morally. We had our share of trials throughout the 33 plus years and over the years I have learned to forgive and let go of the 'BAD' times we went through together. I have become a very forgiving person, maybe even too much at times. You were my hero when I was young dad and I used to think you were the smartest, funniest, richest, dad in the world that no other dad came close to you. I grew up to learn now as a father myself that we all are merely human beings. There is no instruction booklet on being a father. I have had to learn as I went along just as you had to do yourself. Shame on me for thinking you were to be the perfect dad, like it was your sole purpose in life. I realize that you too needed many things out of life besides a child to raise. I grew up dad. I totally forgive you! I am NOT perfect, though I do try to be. I hate making people sad because I know what it feels like to be hurt.

I think we all as fathers try to give to our children what our fathers did or didn't give us. To give to them what we think we needed growing up that we missed out on and to share with them the 'good' things we had, almost like correcting some of the so called 'mistakes' that were made. Some of us however go overboard by spoiling our children a little too much. It might make 'US' feel better but I wonder if we really are doing them any good. The one thing we can never spoil our loved-ones with is 'Love'. Who knows, all we can do as fathers is try our best to listen and pay attention to our children. It's hard at times because life seems to get in the way at times. We must always remember that TODAY is the only day that matters to a child :)

Yesterday is gone, I only have this moment to be existing in and I chose to spend the moment within my thoughts of you.

I love you