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February 14 ChangesWow, It's been about 10 months since I typed in here. I guess the MySpace craze kinda took away everyones attention from MSN Spaces there for a while. I have had quite an eventful past year. Recently I acquired my CDL (Commercial Driver's License) after 7 weeks of schooling and have since been hired on by one of the largest companies in North America to start training again for 5 weeks. My life is about to change drastically for the next year or so. It's a little frightening but it's something I feel I have to do. I have moments of great anxiety that are almost unbarable at times, I begin to pace back and forth and I can't seem to concentrate on conversations that may be going on right before my eyes and ears. My mind is just full of mock visions of the future as my mind makes it all up for me to imagine.
To be continued...
P.s. Happy Valentines Day May 04 ENTIRELY HONEST"We must be entirely honest with somebody if we expect to live long or happily in this world"
A.A. p. 73-74
Honesty, like all virtues, is to be shared. It began after I shared" ... [My] whole life's story with someone ..." in order to find my place in the 'Fellowship". Later I shared my life in order to help the newcomer find his place with us. This sharing helps me to learn honesty in all my dealings and to know that God's plan for me comes true through honest openess and willingness.
Daily Reflections May 4th, p.133 February 20 Those Other People - As Bill Sees It"Just like you, I have often thought myself the victim of what other people say and do. Yet every time I confessed the sins of such people, especially those whos sins did not correspond exactly with my own, I found that I only increased the total damage. My own resentment, my self-pity would often render me well-nigh useless to anybody.
So, nowadays, if anyone talks of me so as to hurt, I first ask myself if there is any truth at all in what they say. If there is none, I try to remember that I too have had my periods of speaking bitterly of others; that hurtful gossip is but a symptom of our remaining emotional illness; and consequently that I must never be angry at the unreasonableness of sick people.
Under very trying conditions I have had, again and again, forgive others---also myself. Have you recently tried this?"
Letter, 1946
February 12 "THE ROOT OF OUR TROUBLES"Selfishness--self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
How amazing the revelation that the world, and everyone in it, can get along just fine with or with-out me. What a relief to know that people, places and things will be perfectly okay without my control and direction. And how wordlessly wonderful to come to believe that a power greater than me exists separate and apart from myself. I believe that the feeling of separation I experience between me and God will one day vanish. In the meantime, faith must serve as the pathway to the center of my life.
pg. 51 [February 12]
November 14 SEXI'm just curious as to how many website hits I will get by posting a blog about the word 'SEX'
Dreaming about sex, refers to the psychological completion and the integration of contrasting aspects of the Self. You need to be more receptive and incorporate aspects of your dream sex partner into your own character. Alternatively and a more direct interpretation of the dream, may be your libido's way of telling you that it's been too long since you have had sex.
November 11 Rememberence DayI chose an event to post about today for rememberence day since I wasn't alive to remember what is usually remembered on this day here in Canada. The sinking of the Edmund Fitzgerald in the month of November back in 1975 when I was 11 years old along with the posting of the timeless piece of music by Gordon Lightfoot will be my contribution of things to remember today. I know we all have a lot of things to remember even in our own lives that have had a major impact. For me the song itself brings back so many things that were happening in my life back then, it works like a triggering device for a flow of memories of mine. Infact I don't even recall the actual sinking of the ship. If it weren't for the song I would not have even known it happened. The song made the event everlasting in most of our memories.
God Bless
The Wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald - Gordon Lightfoot 1976Length: 729 feet
Height: 39 feet Breadth: 75 feet Weight empty: 13,632 tons Hull: 301 Registry number: US 277437 Ship Builder: Great Lakes Engineering Works Engine Manufacturer: Westinghouse Electric Corporation Christened: June 8, 1958 First voyage: Sept. 24, 1958 Final resting place: Lake Superior, 530ft underwater Sinking: November 10, 1975 with no survivors
The legend lives on from the Chippewa on down
of the big lake they called "Gitche Gumee." The lake, it is said, never gives up her dead when the skies of November turn gloomy. With a load of iron ore twenty-six thousand tons more than the Edmund Fitzgerald weighed empty, that good ship and true was a bone to be chewed when the "Gales of November" came early. The ship was the pride of the American side
Above: A piece of the life boat recovered by the 'Anderson'
Facts about the Fitz, Crew and the Lakes:
October 29 This Matter of HonestyExcerpt from 'As Bill Sees It'
"Only God can fully know what absolute honesty is. Therefore, each of us has to conceive what this great ideal may be ...- to the best of our ability.
Fallible as we are, and will be in this life, it would be presumptious to suppose that we could ever really achieve absolute honesty. The best we can do is to strive for a better quality of honesty.
Sometimes we need to place love ahead of indiscriminate 'factual honesty.' We cannot, under the guise of 'Perfect honesty,' cruelly and unneccessarily hurt others. Always one must ask, 'What is, the best and most loving thing I can do?'"
I have come to really believe in the above statement, even though as I was growing up and even up until recent years I have always based my life on how honest I was with others around me and my honesty with myself would affect how I felt about myself. But like it said above sometimes complete honesty can needlessly hurt somebody as it did in my last relationship. Something happened early on in the relationship where I had an opportunity to be totally OPEN and HONEST in the relationship from the start. I had great intentions, turns out by being too honest I set a tone between my X-wife and my new found lover at the time. If I had kept what was said to myself I may have by-passed a needless underlying stress between the two ladies. Turned out to be a constant tension in the relationship. My Lover was truly hurt by my X- wife's ignorant attitude, but I truly must take the blame by opening my mouth and letting the 'ugly' words get to my lover. My intention was to showcase the true personality of my X.... in doing so I think I accomplished that but also hurt the woman close to me. I thought the words said could have been brushed off but I guess I was wrong.
October 20 Coast To Coast
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This is about the most entertaining, informative, eye-opening, shocking, educational radio program ever regularily aired to the public!
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It's time for us ALL to listen and to OPEN OUR EYES and MINDS !October 18 Seeking Guidance"Man is supposed to think, and act. He wasn't made in God's image to be an automaton (Robot)".
"My own formula along this line runs as follows: First, think through every situation pro and con, praying meanwhile that I be not influenced by ego considerations. Affirm that I would like to do God's will".
"Then, having turned the problem over in this fashion and getting no conclusive or compelling answer, I wait for furthur guidance, which may come into the mind directly or through other people or through circumstances".
"If I feel I can't wait, and still get no definite indication, I repeat the first measure several times, try to pick out the best course, and then proceed to act. I know if I am wrong, the heavens won't fall. A lesson will be learned, in any case."
Letter, 1950.
From the book : 'As Bill Sees It' p.55
October 17 Alterior motive?>>>>>[What are the chances that smoking will kill you? About half of all those who continue to smoke will die because of the habit. In the U.S., tobacco causes nearly 1 in 5 deaths, killing about 435,000 Americans each year. Smoking is the single most preventable cause of death in our society. Based on current smoking patterns, smoking will kill about 500 million people alive in the world today. Tobacco-caused deaths worldwide are expected to increase from about 5 million per year today to about 10 million per year by the 2030s. Most of these deaths will occur in developing countries. How does tobacco use affect the economy? The tobacco industry is one of the most profitable businesses in the country, making billions of dollars yearly. But the costs of smoking are far higher than the income from cigarette sales.
Above: is an excerpt from The American Cancer Society
My personal confusion as usual here below: Q. Why are tobacco industries allowed to legally sell such a deadly product to the public and yet drugs such as 'heroin' (Just as addictive and harmful as nicotine) pot, cocaine, etc... are illegal?
A. ______________________________________________ <--- place answer here
The Tobacco industry reminds me of the Oil industry in a way that they have the ability to make one addicted or dependant on their product. They both are products that some can't seem to live without, more so OIL, but I think you can see the comparison here. Yes Tobacco kills people that use it and sometimes people that are not even using it but so also does the products of Oil indirectly.
One Million Die in Car Accidents Every Year In 2002, road traffic injuries accounted for 2.6 percent of the worldwide burden from disease and made up approximately 23 percent of all deaths from injury, compared to other deaths such as suicide at 16.9 percent, war at 3.4 percent and other acts of violence at 10.8 percent. Experts estimated the number of people injured in traffic accidents each year could be as high as 50 million and has captured less attention from the media than less common and unusual types of deaths. Research has shown the rapid growth of motorized vehicles in the developing areas of the world has increased the number of traffic-related deaths. An example of this could be seen in 1998, when India lost 217,000 people due to road accidents. Britain on the other hand, is considered to have the safest roads in the world.
-In the United States, traffic accidents remain the leading cause of death for Americans under the age of 35.
-While cell phones have recently sprung up as a common cause of car accidents, a study, the largest to date on crashes involving distracted drivers, found that rubbernecking causes far more accidents than cell phone use. -The largest number of accidents was caused by drivers looking at other accidents, traffic or roadside incidents. Comparatively, cell phone use ranked as the sixth highest cause. The study included data on more than 2,700 accidents involving distracted drivers between June and November 2002.
-Distractions from inside the vehicle accounted for 62 percent of the distractions reported while distractions from outside the vehicle accounted for 35 percent, and three percent of the distractions were undetermined. -Of the crashes that occurred in rural areas, nearly two-thirds of the crashes reported, common causes included driver fatigue, insects entering or striking the vehicle, or animals and unrestrained pet distractions.
Ok, my point is (now that I have almost forgotten it ) that there are people in positions of high authority with more money than the majority of us will ever see in many lifetimes controlling the outcomes of so many peoples' lives. Making money off them as they slowly (Tobacco) or instantly (Oil Companies) kill themselves using their product (s). No guilt, shame! We are creatures of habit! We need routine! normality! comfort! all these emotions and character traits are being taken advantage of by the BIG corporations around the world.
and to think I haven't even mentioned the Booze industry yet....
October 16 Inward RealityIt's been constantly revealed, as mankind studies the material world, that is outward appearance is not inward reality at all. The prosaic steel girder is a mass of electrons whirling around each other at incredible speed, and these tiny bodies are governed by precise laws. Science tells us so. We have no reason to doubt it.
When however, the perfectly logical assumption is suggested that, infinitely beyond the material world as we see it, there is an all powerful, guiding, creative, intellelligence, our perverse streak comes to the surface and we set to convince ourselves that this isn't so. Were our contention true, it would follow that life originated out of nothing, means nothing, and proceeds nowhere.
'As Bill sees it' p.260 Onward (intro) - Unity - Yes 'Keys to Ascension' 1 [Live]By: Chris Squire
Contained in everything I do There's a love, I feel for you Proclaimed in everything I write You're the light Burning, brightly Onward through the night Onward through the night Onward through the night of my life Displayed in all the things I see There's a love you show to me Portrayed in all the things you say You're the day Leading the way
October 14 Coast To Coast AM - w/ George NooryTake The Water To The Mountain - Yes 'Union'By Jon Anderson
Take the water to the mountain; Take the water to the mountain; Take the water to the mountain; Take the water to the mountain;
The Truth is Revealed!Finally! The truth about oil and gas prices !
Here is an excerpt:
The Myth Of Peak Oil Paul Joseph Watson & Alex Jones | October 12 2005 "Peak oil is a scam designed to create artificial scarcity and jack up prices while giving the state an excuse to invade our lives and order us to sacrifice our hard-earned living standards."
"The Scientific evidence also flies in the face of the peak oil theory. Scientific research dating back over a hundred years, more recently updated in a Scientific Paper Published In 'Energia' suggests that oil is abiotic, not the product of long decayed biological matter. Oil, for better or for worse, is not a non-renewable resource. It, like coal, and natural gas, replenishes from sources within the mantle of earth. No coincidence then that the Russians, who pioneered this research have pumped expenditure into deep underground oil excavation." October 09 Survival - YES 'Debut 1969'Anderson Sunshine is creeping in and somewhere in a field a life begins,
As 'ONE'
30,000 so far reported dead !
I'm thinking mother nature is going into labour this year, though I may be mistaken but the amount of natural disasters in the last year seems alot higher in number and intencity than I can recall than when I was younger.
Just thinking back to the major Tsunami last christmas up until now. I read this morning that they are expecting a severe October Hurricane (s) for the states along with a couple smaller ones. Keep in mind that the hurricane season finishes November 30th which is still a ways away yet. It just seems that not only are WE as a human race becoming more angry at each other but infact the planet we live upon has also become just as angry. Whether we are the cause or not, the earth is very much alive and is also growing and changing just as we do. We are evolving and so is the earth.
All these disasters are costing billions of dollars all over the world. Where is all the money going to come from?
This is something I could never understand: Huge amounts of money are given out to other countries when disasters happen which is a great neighbourly gesture and a humane one at that. The U.S.A. has been hit hard this year with disasters and there are more to come, but I can't understand how they are able to come up with HUGE amounts of cash for these things and for other countries aswell.
So this is my confusion : I can't understand the fact all this money is available but yet I see all kinds of homeless and poor people in America. Why can't they come up with money to help out the people in their own country? I look at it this way. I have a residence (comparison to a country) and a family (My People) to take of... now there is a budget ofcourse, but things need to be taken care of financially within the limits of my residence... so for instance my next door neighbour (neighboring country) needs money but I know I do not have any extra cash outside my budget to give to them... Do I go into debt to help them out? or do I suggest asking another neighbour (country) for help? and what if there are 5 other neighbours that need help? do I further extend myself beyond my means?...... because if I do extend myself BEYOND my means I am putting my own family (countrymen) at great risk if infact an emergency or tragedy happens within my own space. I can't ask the nieghbours for help because I just had to help them out of their BAD situation and I know for a fact they wouldn't have the financial means at the time to help me out.
Does anyone know how this all works? if so, then please explain it to me!
The new world way of thinking should be
as... 'ONE'
October 04 A Necessary Pruning - Daily Reflections Oct. 4th[ I love spending time in my garden feeding and pruning my beautiful flowers. One day, as I was busily snipping away, a neighbor stopped by. She commented. "Oh! Your plants are so beautiful, it seems such a shame to cut them back." I replied, "I know how you feel, but the excess must be removed so they can grow stronger and healthier." Later I thought that perhaps my plants feel pain, but God and I know it's part of the plan and I've seen the results. I was quickly reminded of my precious 12 Step program and how we all grow through pain. I ask God to prune me when it's time, so I can grow. ]
The above was taken directly from the book 'Daily Reflections' ...I do not have my own garden...
Letting go of the past
My understanding of 'Letting Go' has changed many times since I was introduced to a 12 Step program over 3 years ago. At first I thought it just meant to 'Forget' the past as if it never happened at all. That way of thinking just did'nt seem to work for me though because the memories of any painful event that took place would continue to haunt and torment me on a daily basis. It took several months if not a couple years to get a better understanding of what is actually meant by 'Letting go'.
ok, everything that has happened to me up date in my life is fact, reality, never going to change. It's written in stone. But, it is in fact 'The Past', it's yesterday and yesterday I believe is GONE. Nothing can change yesterday. I can also not ignore what I have been through. Events that took place always have a cause and effect and I have to accept the fact that I am who I am because of the events that occurred.
So how do I look at it now? ... well... I have to 'accept' the fact that things have happened but I understand that I will never forget any of it. It may be burried deep in my memories but it will never be truly erased from my memory. I also understand that those memories can be triggered by some event currently happening to me and brought right back to the forefront of my mind at any given time. The serenity prayer helps me alot, infact it runs through my mind many times throughout the day. It is VERY powerful and ever so simple to memorize. It brings a calming to my mind, body and soul, giving me the mind set to deal with current situations. It doesn't make me invulnerable to getting hurt, but you might say it 'Softens' the blow.
'God, grant me the serenity, to accept the things I cannot change. Courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference'
Please note 'The wisdom' to know the difference... difference between being able to change things that I am capable of changing and ones that I am NOT capable of changing and Knowing that PAST events can not be changed. I think it comes down to knowing one's self. We ask for the 'COURAGE' to change the things we can. I would even enter the word 'STRENGTH' in there as well just because I can be weak at times due to exhaustion. I found that 'exhaustion' can bring upon 'Impaired' judgement as much as a 40 oz bottle of Rum could do.
Let go and let God
This is where the above subtitle comes into play. Looking into the past can be painful for some of us. I know people, many people who have so much hurt inside them. They seem to be imprisoned by these memories. Everything that has happened to me has happened for a reason I believe and I must look into the events and reflect back to myself, asking GOD or my 'Higher Power' to help me see things clearly, filtering out any pain as I sift through the events one at a time. I can be pretty certain to describe the way I see my past as watching a 'Biography' about myself on television as a viewer (Commercial-free ofcourse). I try to relate all that has happened, to my current situation and placement in my life. It can be difficult for some to actually LET GO and LET GOD especially if they have relied heavily on themselves or another human being throughout their lifetime. Human beings are NOT perfect as much as some of them would like to think of themselves.
During the Katrina Hurricane after events I was watching I believe it was 'Larry King Live' on CNN and near the end of the show there was a reverend that was live via satellite as one of the many guests reporting from around the disaster areas. I wish I could recall his name but he was doing great work with the evacuees children in Houston (I believe, correct me if I'm wrong). He said something beautiful right at the end of the show about what they were explaining to the refugee children of the disaster and it went somewhat like this:
"We have to teach the children that material things can be taken or lost including loved ones, but the only thing that can not be taken from them is their 'FAITH' or relationship with GOD'. No-one can take that from them ever!... he went on to say that if the USA were taken over by aliens or another country and we were thrown into prison camps and tortured that still the only thing they cannot take from us is our relationship with GOD" it truly is the ONLY thing we can ever posess forever, your material things that you THINK you own for example your house...pssst ....you don't really own it, infact you are only renting it while the bank actually owns it most of your lifetime, you are basically an occupant....oh and don't forget about foreclosures, happens all the time to people now adays. Jobs are NOT secure ANYWHERE.
Cracks me up when people say "We OWN our home" or "We bought a home".
Check out these numbers from the USA alone this year so far, and the year is far from over!
U.S.A.'s Population to date is: 297,347,936
Canada's Population to date: 32,306,549
Obviously Canada's numbers will be considerably lower due to the fact the population is 265 million less than that of the States.
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